A Dream State of Mind.

I was searching through my computer documents to find a pattern I had stored away and stumbled across the opening sentence to a novel I started last year:
I never finish what I start.

I laughed hysterically at the irony.

Ah, well. I can't quite keep up with my ideas but at least they're brewing.

I did create a knit patterns folder so I won't go stumbling around inside my hard drive for ages!

But now....
these are the plans of unfinished dreams, schemes and creations:

1. The Rag Thing - start cutting up old sheets in solid colors to create fabric strips and tie them together to make long pieces of 'yarn'. Knit with these. This concept works well with how I want my knit stuff to look....basically like rags held together magically.
----progress: Well, I bought the nice sharp scissors for this and they are sitting on my desk. I looked at our old sheets and realized most of them have print on one side. This will not really work. Then I considered those bags of old clothes we are giving to good will and they're just sitting in the van. Then I thought how much work it would be to cut up one old dress or pair of jeans and talked myself out of it.
----next step: get some sheets that will work.
----question: a lot of effort required here. will the end result be worth all of that time spent 'creating' the rag yarn?

2. The Deconstructed Thing - create a line of cool clothes by knitting cuffs and collars and sewing them onto already existing items. Knit panels of lacy stitches with wild yarns and sew these onto jackets etc.
----progress: I have finished two cuffs of bubblegum pink Berroco Plush to go on to a killer beat up old Levi's jean jacket. I have no clue as to the best method to sew these on? I also have no clue how to make a rounded collar but that's what I want to do.
----next step: Get yarn or embroidery thread to sew the cuffs on. Also, go through those same bags of discarded clothes for potential fixer uppers.
------question...........is this worth it?
I don't know.

3. The Un-Knit Look Thing for Videos - create line of mad max style punk scarves with screwy lace stitch patterns and get them to my friend who can then show them to her stylists for big music videos.
----progress: zero. I seem to get stuck at the gate on this idea. What? Knit for money? hmmmm...a pleasing concept but how to get started. No idea. In some ways, I don't feel competent enough yet. College grad dreams, Kindergarten skills.
----next step: I could at least make another couple of scarves pretty easily that would fit this idea. I even have the yarn that I think would create the look I want. Ahhh....but when??????

4. The Novel Thing - Then there is the book. Yes, I too like millions before me dream of writing a novel.
----progress: I have the basic character named and concept sort of, kind of outlined.
----next step: I don't think I have time for this! However, I do belong to this insane site where you write a novel in a MONTH! It happens every November. You basically have to submit 50,000 words. It doesn't have to make sense but why would you bother if it didn't? It's really just to get all of us procrastinators motivated. Loads of folks have done this successfully. Maybe this year, I will too.

5. The Rock Thing - Ultimately, my dream is to get my band to some degree of success. Just the kind where we can live off of it.
----progress: well, the new album is mixed. We do have friends waiting to get it to the appropriate sets of ears but honestly? I don't have much hope in the music biz these days. It's like playing russian roulette.
----next step: just keep doing what we're doing.

6. The Record Label Thing - Then there's our studio. hmmmm....we are in the middle of producing another band in there. I used to think we could be a record label. But I don't seem to know how to get that happening like other folks do even though we've produced quite a few bands now and people like them alot. Labels need capital. And the only capital we have is the knowledge of city/state capitals! ha!

So there you have it.
Please please please make me feel less alone and share your mad creative dreams in the comments section. I would love to know I'm not the only one who shoots for the moon.

Mood: sleepy.

Confession: I have goofed off ALL AFTERNOON! Ignored my phone and knitted a cuff for the jean jacket mentioned above. he he.

Movies: During same guilt-free afternoon.........I watched the League Of Gentlemen. If you've never seen this ...well, it's quite hard to explain. hmmmm....imagine an English comedy soap combined with gore humor and just bizarre antics. If you've ever been to a 'local shop'....you will laugh your head off.

Comments

[Nathania]

Gawd, where to begin...

Let's see, there was the image consultant thing (which I do kinda sorta, whenever a friend refers a client for a color consult), the make up artist thing (which I would still love to do. I'm mad for MAC), the yoga studio thing, the private yoga instruction thing (if I could ever figure out how to get that going), the Enneagram teaching thing, the modeling thing (which ended when I got totally hosed by my agency), the acting thing (which I get to do for fun with my crazy LA friends), the writing thing (languishing in the darker realms of my hard drive), the quilt and knit designing thing (which is still active), the poetry thing, the gemology thing, the marine biology thing, the doctor thing, the psychology thing (I'm still gonna get that degree one of these days)... yeah, lots and lots of things. At the moment I'm just trying to get someone to pay me money for doing *any*thing.... so I can buy more yarn... lots and lots of yarn... oh, and batik fabric... and more yarn...

[Toni]

"Please please please make me feel less alone and share your mad creative dreams in the comments section. I would love to know I'm not the only one who shoots for the moon."

Let's see:
1. work in the entertainment industry (post prod or music supervision) Any place where I can feed my need for [indie] film and music
2. go back to dance class and regain some lost flexibility from my childhood. do one set of barre exercises en pointe (o:
3. learn to knit with circular needles. Massive bouts of insecurity
4. Keep traveling!
5. Write a short story/essay/review. More insecurities there
6. Rent a cool office to work & create. I can't work at home
7. Learn how to use my iMac/iMovie/iDVD so it can start paying for itself, finally!
8. figure out what to do with my small stash of yarn

That's it for now...