this is a pic of me n my mom from about a week ago. since then she has lost more weight and i guess.....been 'declining'. that's the polite word the hospice uses. (and yes, i prefer that word, too.)
shit. it just sucks. when she has bouts with pain ........it just sucks.
i'm probably going out there again very very soon as she seems to not be doing too hot. hospital bed in the living room now. chair lifts, wheelchairs....they upped her pain meds and she has oxygen for the night time.
but dammit...........she looks pretty good in this pic doesn't she? yeah.........she is a tough lady. taught me pretty much everything i know about music. i played piano for her while i was there. played a bunch of old standards from her 'fake books'. stuff like 'basin street blues', 'cottage for sale', 'body and soul'...etc etc. she loved it and so did i.
well, just wanted to say thank you for all the lovely caring emails, comments and cards.
xx
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I'm so sorry to hear that your momma not's doing too well right now. I've been there and I know it sucks.
As for that picture of you two, your mom is just beautiful! She really looks happy right there having her arm around you. That's one picture you'll treasure.
Posted by: Silvia | June 29, 2005 at 05:19 PM
I'm so sorry to hear things are declining so quickly. Your mom looks beautiful and it sounds like she's a beautiful person. I hope you get to spend some good quality time with her whenever you can.
Posted by: Shanti | June 29, 2005 at 07:34 PM
Beautiful photo of you two...
Posted by: Toni | June 29, 2005 at 07:35 PM
I'm so sorry to hear your mom is declining..the pic of you two is such a lovely picture. Your mom looks so beautiful, and it's so nice to see that even what she's been through, she's still smiling. God bless her and you, and I hope you can spend that special "mother-daughter" time with her when you can. Keeping you both in my thoughts and prayers.
Posted by: Jennifer | June 29, 2005 at 09:46 PM
Glad to see you check in again - I've been thinking about you! You're mom looks fantastic in that picture! What a special gift to have.
Posted by: Renee | June 29, 2005 at 11:48 PM
As I said in my e-mail, I am here for you if you need me.
I'm very sorry to know your mother is not doing very well.
You are right, she looks very beautifull and also happy. I'm sure sure she is a very strong woman.
Keep on playing piano for her she'll love it.
Give her lots of kisses from Barcelona.
Big hug for you.
Posted by: Francesc | June 30, 2005 at 03:52 AM
I was just thinking of you last night and wondering how you were getting on. I'm so sorry about your Mom.
Sending big hugs
Anna
Posted by: Anna | June 30, 2005 at 06:51 AM
She looks beautiful in that picture. Take care and thinking of you.
Posted by: Kate | June 30, 2005 at 08:48 AM
Your mom is a beautiful lady -- now I see where you get it from! Take care of both of you!
Posted by: Wendy | June 30, 2005 at 09:16 AM
I'm so sorry to hear that your mom's "declining". It's really great that you're able to spend some time with her now. *hugs*
Take care of you both.
Posted by: Karen M | June 30, 2005 at 09:40 AM
Hon, your mum doesn't look sick in the picture -- you both look so strong.
I'm so sorry she is in pain. And you too. My heart breaks for you and your family. I will send good thoughts your way hoping your mother's pain resides.
Much love.
Posted by: jessica~ | June 30, 2005 at 10:54 AM
You both look gorgeous -- it's easy to see where you get your beauty (inner and outer) from. You do look tired (surprise, surprise) -- do remember to caretake yourself in all this. There's no way around the fact that it all does suck, but prayers and love and good wishes going to you and your family -- I hope they soften the suckiness for all of you.
Posted by: Carol | June 30, 2005 at 11:36 AM
Share, that is a lovely picture with you and your mother--I know you will cherish that for years to come. I will continue to think about you and your family in this difficult time.
Posted by: Lolly | June 30, 2005 at 01:28 PM
I am sorry about your mom, I know how it feels I have just lost my mom on May 25, 2005 and it just Sucks. I lost my dad in July 18, 2004 and now if is just feeling weird. Hope you have friends that are there for you they are a blessing when the lost is just too great. Hugs from another blogger.
Posted by: Pammi | July 01, 2005 at 10:55 AM
share, your mom is beautiful. i know how hard it is to watch someone you love slip away. if you need anything, you know where to find me. don't hesitate to call. sending positive, healing vibes your way.
Posted by: shannita | July 02, 2005 at 02:31 PM
Beautiful picture Share.
Posted by: Lynn | July 03, 2005 at 01:21 AM